Push

MATCHBOX 20 "PUSH"

She said I don't know if I've ever been good enough
I'm a little bit rusty, and I think my head is caving in
And I don't know if I've ever been really loved
By hand that's touched me, well I feel like something's gonna give
And I'm a little bit angry, well

This ain't over, no not here, not while I still need you around
You don't owe me, we might change
Yeah we just might feel good

(Chorus)
I wanna push you around, well I will, well I will
I wanna push you down, well I will, well I will
I wanna take you for granted, I wanna take you for granted, yeah I will, I will

Well I will

She said I don't know why you ever would lie to me
Like I'm a little untrusting when I think that the truth is gonna hurt ya
And I don't know why you couldn't just stay with me
You couldn't stand to be near me
When my face don't seem to want to shine
'cuz It's a little bit dirty well

Don't just stand there, say nice things to me
I've been cheated I've been wronged you,
And you don't know me, I can't change
I won't do anything at all

(Chorus)
I wanna push you around, well I will, well I will
I wanna push you down, well I will, well I will
I wanna take you for granted, I wanna take you for granted, yeah I will, I will

Oh but don't bowl me over
Just wait a minute well it kinda fell apart, things get so crazy, crazy
Don't rush this baby, don't rush this Baby, baby

(Chorus)
I wanna push you around, well I will, well I will
I wanna push you down, well I will, well I will
I wanna take you for granted, yeah, yeah, yeah
I wanna take you, take you, yeah, well I will, I will, I will, I will
I will, I will, I will, Yeah, yeah, push you around,
I'll drag you down, I wanna push you around
Well I will

No... diverse

Draga si iar draga jurnal... sau ce mai esti tu,

Din mare si nefericita intamplare, ne vedem extrem de rar. Pe langa diversele lipsuri (timp, bani, chef), nu prea mai e loc de conversatii, placute sau mai putin placute. Spuneam la un moment dat ca nu avem timp... replica unei persoane cu care purtam aceasta conversatie era: nu avem rabdare. Poate ca intr-adevar nu avem rabdare...
Din reflectiile altora, pentru ca zilele astea ma straduiesc sa nu ma gandesc la nimic... sa fiu un fel de feed-back "vivant", raspunzand cu calm si poate cu resemnare la ceea ce se intampla in jurul meu. Poate ca imi doresc sa pot spune "i'm not angry... anymore" :)) Da, din nou este la "moda mea interioara" Matchbox 20, special melodia de mai sus si "push" (asta da declaratie de dragoste :D).
Asadar, din gandurile celorlalti, cu care nu sunt de acord, dar asta nu inseamna ca nu trebuie sa nu le iau in considerare: "am renuntat la relatiile care nu-mi aduc nici un folos si care nu merg de la sine". Poate ca, in cele din urma, este o forma de intelepciune. Poate ca si lipsa de intelepciune este o forma de intelepciune, right? :))
Sper sa ma mut... macar din punctul asta de vedere, in lumea care se clatina, de straini cu fete familiare, ceva siguranta nu strica...
Ce faci? Respir... din obisnuinta...

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Adica, primul post de acasa. Ma repet... oare?
Nu.. e chiar ok, in cele din urma. Mai ales daca stai si respiri adanc si iti repeti ce crezi ca este important... ce insisti ca este important. Pentru inceput, destul de multa oboseala si destul de mult stres, dar e ok. Daca insist, uite ca ma conving.
Sa rezolv cu jobul si cu toate celelalte, ca apoi nu poate fi decat mai bine. Si cu toate celelalte... haha! Uite ce se numeste optimism deplasat :)).
N-are nimic. Ma readaptez. Incet, dar sper ca sigur. Nimic nu e chiar atat de rau cat ar putea fi. E si asta un inceput ;)